8/19/2017 0 Comments Do You Feel Like You?While I was visiting one of my closest friends last week, she asked me, “Do you feel like you yet?” I wasn’t sure what she meant.
“What do you mean?” “I mean, are you able to fathom that this body is now your own? That you are a different woman than you used to be?” That’s a difficult question. The realistic answer is, “No.” I’ve lived so much of my life as an overweight female, that it is still very difficult for me to break the habits that came with being that person. Here are some weird things that I still experience:
There are so many more of these that I could list. To a person who has never experienced being heavy, these likely all seem nonsensical. But for those of us who have spent most of our lives wearing much larger pants, not being able to fit our hineys in the remaining space on the couch, being looked down upon for being overweight, being kicked off of roller coasters when we don’t fit in the seats, or knocking some kid’s work off of his/her desk because the aisles in between the desks are too narrow, these are real concerns. I absolutely understand that this perspective is skewed, and perhaps to some it may seem that I should actively be working to change it. I don’t know that I would, though. These are the kinds of things that motivate me to continue working on myself. I know the fear and embarrassment that I felt in those situations, and I know that I never want to genuinely feel the same way again. If I lose sight of those emotions, I feel like I will also lose inspiration to continue being a better version of myself. However, I can only utilize that perspective as motivation so long as I can identify that those moments of hesitation mean nothing in the grand scheme of things. Once they pass, I can brush them off or even consider them small victories upon realizing that I am no longer the person who needs to concern herself with the problems she encountered as a 300 pound woman. If you are also navigating your way through the twists and turns of a transformation journey, weight loss or otherwise, it is important to recognize that the mind and body do not always change at the same rate: you may be physically different, but your brain will need a few minutes to catch up. For some, this can be confusing, and maybe even burdensome. With the right mindset, though, you can train yourself to use it as motivation to remain both humble and driven. And who knows? Maybe one day you’ll forget the little idiosyncrasies attached to your former self. Maybe you won’t. What matters is that you can identify them as being based on an outdated and inaccurate perspective that holds no meaning to the progress that you have made or what is yet to come.
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